At this rate, I’m really going crazy.

I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.
I shouldn’t have volunteered to be the leader.
I don’t know how to lead.
I don’t know how to play the game.
I screwed everything up.
If your weren’t in my group, things wouldn’t have been so bad for your.

It’s been more than a week.
But I really can’t get it over.
Hiding at home crying the whole day just didn’t help.
Sleepless nights.
Severe headaches.
Giddy and nauseous.
At this rate, I really can’t make it…

But no one understands.
I cant get it over,
I really cant.
I cant tell anyone.
I don’t know how to move on from here…